Currently... {The UNdone edition}

Currently… June was a whirlwind and now July is coming to an end.  

 I started #UNdone after having a major melt down. My weight was out of control. My emotions were out of control. My heart was out of control. I had to stop and listen and come #UNdone in a lot of areas of my life. I had to say NO to many things; relationships, commitments, foods, habits and arguments. 

I had to say YES to some brave new things; traveling with my two MountainBoys and the dog {without MountainMan} as well as traveling all by myself to Los Angles to meet the Mountainman for a couple of days. I drove and strolled the LA streets by MYSELF. This was huge for me.

Saying YES to the MountainMan leaving the country for an extended period of time. YES to the MountainBoys goingto Bible Camp for 3 weeks.  

And YES to my nephew going back to Salt Lake, after planning on adopting him. That heartbreak seems so far away and yet it feels so fresh in my chest. He said good bye and took a piece of my heart with him. Ultimately it was his choice.  

Currently Pondering... Neighboring and Community

Currently Reading… Just Courage ~Gary A Haugen, He Chose the Nails ~Max Lucado , Dr. A's Habits of Health, Beyond Boundaries ~ Dr John Townsend, Speak ~Nish Weiseth

Currently loving… This season of parenting. Our boys are growing. Physically {mustaches, muscles and height} In skills { hunting, driving, shopping for the best deals, budgeting their own money} Spiritually {they talk of God. Each conversation seasoned in salt. They have had 3 weeks of Bible Camp. One week for Leadership, One week with their peers and One week where they were Camp Counselors; our boys... camp counselors} Character {they talk about the under dog, the hopeless and how they can help. They talk about respecting women and marriage. I see them put their thoughts and words into action as I watch them interact with their peers and leaders.}  

Currently waiting for... {This is the same as last time I wrote. However, while chewing on the Word it hit me a little different. Maybe God is waiting on me to say YES} God. Waiting has taught me that just because I have not moved yet. Or the prayers I utter every night have not been answered… yet. Does not mean that God doesn't like me. OR that he doesn't answer my prayers like he does everybody else. It doesn't mean that I don’t have enough faith or that I waver too much. He is not waiting to pounce on me and make me pay for all my past sins. He is just waiting, probably on me. I am biting my nails trying to be patient, knowing that what he has in store is more than what I could ask for. 

 Currently excited about... This new page that seems to be turning for MountainMan

Currently missing... MountainMan. I am really excited for this new chapter for him. He is able to use his God given skills. It is paying off for him. He is getting recognition and new opportunities. He is traveling to amazing places and meeting incredible people. It also means he is gone 2-3 weeks out of a month. I miss him.  

Currently trying... to embrace this new chapter for me as well. MountainMan being gone. MountainBoys new found freedom's has me thinking... what do I do with this time. 

Currently working at... relationship and boundaries again...

Currently enjoying... the sunshine. It feels like the days are already getting shorter

Currently using... all the new samples I get each month in my Birchbox!! I love all of the face exfoliates and fragrances. I am even trying new trends like "bright lips" 

Currently wearing... some new perfume I purchased. Kenneth Cole WHITE. It reminds me of a perfume I use to wear called MACKIE. Except this is a bit lighter. 

Currently planning... our next home. I don't know where it will be. It doesn't stop me from planning. By planning I mean Pinning...

Currently needing... Community. We all need it. We were made for community. It's how we grow. When we let others reach inside of us and change us. When others allow us to reach inside of them and change them. God is glorified. God is seen in tangible ways. We are healed, encouraged, called out and metamorphosis takes place. Community is our cocoon.  

Currently learning... that EVERYTHING I do effects someone. That decisions that people around me make effects me as well. Do they understand that? Do they care? Am I using this knowledge to encourage or discourage? What about those around me? Are they intentionally encouraging me or discouraging me? 

Currently listening to... the hush of a box fan

Currently wishing... for too much to put on paper. It's time to put one foot in front of the other instead of just wishing 

Currently doing... a Women's Bible study curriculum. I  am putting it together for this fall. I am hoping to launch a women's discipleship program at our current church. 

Currently praying for... the MountainMan and his safe return. MountainMan boys and their continued growth. Grace Women's Ministry. Marriages that are hurting and being torn apart. Sick to be healed. Eye's to be opened. 

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Currently... Bring on 2015

Currently… moments ago I walked in the door from putting the hen’s to bed. It was tranquil. The snow fell slowly and the flashlight glistened off the little bits of ice. I felt like I was in a world of glitter.

Currently… the word for 2015 "KNOW". To know. To believe. To remove distorted thoughts. Truth. To be present. To see. To witness. To watch.

Currently Reading… God Distorted ~ John Bishop, This Present Darkness~ Frank E Peretti, The pursuit of God ~ A.W. Tozer, Believing God ~Beth Moore

Currently loving… Rest. It doesn't happen much for me. This chapter in my life has brought rest. I am learning to live in it.

Currently waiting for...  God. Waiting has taught me that just because I have not moved yet. Or the prayers I utter every night have not been answered… yet. Does not mean that God doesn't like me. OR that he doesn't answer my prayers like he does everybody else. It doesn't mean that I don’t have enough faith or that I waver too much. He is not waiting to pounce on me and make me pay for all my past sins. He is just waiting, probably on me. I am biting my nails trying to be patient, knowing that what he has in store is more than what I could ask for.

We are also waiting to know if Lobster is going to rehab. If so, that means we will have two extra boys living with us. Excited and nervous wrapped in one.

 Currently excited about... Goal setting and Goal Board crafting.

Currently missing... convenience. I miss being 3 minutes from the grocery store when I need Nyquil. I miss having a neighbor, friends and family close by.

Currently trying... to see life from other’s point of view

Currently working at... embracing getting older. I am working at healthier choices and creating the habit of going to the gym daily.

Currently enjoying... these soft sweat pants that MountainMan bought me for Christmas. I have worn them every day since. {Give me a break we have been sick}

Currently using... lots of tissues and Vick’s vapor rub

Currently wearing... when I am not wearing my sweat pants, I am in flannels. Flannels shirts. Flannel skirts. I didn't realize MountainMan and I were so POSH. #LUMBERSEXUAL

Currently planning...2015 of course

Currently singing... Ed Sheeran Thinking Out Loud

Currently needing... A massage. A hot cup of coffee. I take that back. A shot of NyQuil is what I need

Currently learning... about God. Who is HE really? Not this god I thought he was! Applying 1 Corinthians 13 to HIM. Because if God is LOVE, as He calls Himself, then God is patient. God is kind. God is not easily angered. God does not delight in evil but rejoices in the truth. God always protects. These are things I did not trust God for. Most of my Christian life I have been waiting for Him to bring the hammer down. I plop down expecting the bottom to fall out.Wasting time to find out I really do have to pay for all my sins, it was just joke. But GOD NEVER Ever. Ever. Ever. Ever. Fails!!

Currently listening to... the dog snoring. Hunger Games playing on the TV. Typing of the keyboard. It’s quiet and normal around here. *peaceful sigh*

Currently wishing...  I could start planning a HOME board on Pinterest for real

Currently doing...year end financials. Just like every year at this time

Currently praying for... health. For Kairos. For dear friends. For family. For clarity. For MORE of God. To KNOW Him more. For the MountainBoys. To know how much of my story to share on Sunday. Sometimes when I repeat it out loud it seems unreal. 

Currently dreaming of... a new home. I know I know. I am just being truthful J

My wishing is like putting clothes out to dry on a 30 degree day... it's not going to happen anytime soon

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Currently... Dreaming of a new year

The hustle and bustle of Christmas is over, a fresh New Year has begun... I thought it would be the perfect time for a "Currently" post.  This is just a quick snapshot of what has been going on around here and just where my heart is. {BTW the word for the year. BRAVE}

Currently loving... Quiet Time. Winter Break. Sundance Boots. Parties with seasoned friends . Unexpected phone calls from across the world. 
Currently reading... Romans. The In-Between by Jeff Goins. Some stuff on Tourette Syndrome. The Knowledge of the Holy by A.W. Tozer. Just finished this, I have needed that for a while.  

Currently waiting for...A phone call. {Where is she?} The next big step. Direction.  Answered prayer.

Currently excited about... The New Year. Our new church. A fresh chapter.

Currently missing...the Weber's

Currently trying... to be in the moment. Breath deep. Jump. Take a leap of Faith.


Currently working at... relationships... and being a better wife. friend. mother. daughter. sister

{Beautiful gift we received from The Dunn Family}

Currently enjoying... coffee in the morning. Talks about the future and goals. 

Currently using...lots of mental energy. I am stressed about finding a building for Kairos. The school for Teen Mom's.

Currently wearing... sweat pants and Ugg boots. Baby it's cold outside.  

Currently planning...2014.  A fresh endeavor.

Currently singing... Thriftshop. {Thanks Mountainboy!!}

Currently needing... A massage. A change of environment. A good run outside on level pavement. A prayer warrior to pray with me. A cup of coffee with a friend. A crisp new outlook on life. 

Currently learning... life is tougher then I expected. Boundaries. How to set them. How to accept others boundaries. Faith.

{The ONLY picture I got when we went snowboarding. Of course MountainMan's eyes are closed}

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Currently listening to... Caro Emerald on Pandora. The Mountainboys learning all the new apps they downloaded in the background.

Currently wishing...  That this "dark" would leave. That I had all the answers. Flight tickets to Accra.

Currently doing...year end financials.  

Currently praying for... faith. That my fear of God will out way my fear of man. 

Currently dreaming of... a brighter future. Freedom in my life that allows HIM to do more then my eyes could see, ears can hear and my mind can conceive. {1 Corin. 2:9}

What are you currently up to?