Growing
up my step father was a business man. He owned a concrete company. As a grown
up (and a Realtor) I understand what a rollercoaster the housing industry can
be. Sometimes money was abundant and sometimes there was none. He was the husband to my mother, who is a
rollercoaster herself. Her drug addictions and brokenness caused a lot of havoc
in our home. Some days I would come home from school to find our house tore
apart and my mother nowhere to be found. Other times I would come home to gifts
on my bed; clothing, perfume, books, cd’s anything my mother thought I would
like. The home was cleaned and dinner on the stove. It was these times that I
knew the world was “right”. Tonight I would sleep well because Momma was happy.
The
last few years has taught me a lot about stuff, the importance of holding on
and letting go. My journey through Ecclesiastes the last few weeks has been
teaching me about the meaningless of so many things. One being stuff. Yes,
again.
It’s
been through these morning times I realized I am still attached to stuff. After
all this time I still struggle with it. My eyes are never satisfied. My closet
is never full enough. I want more and forget about all that I have. My view on stuff
is distorted.
Gathering
stuff makes me feel like everything is right in the world.
I
realize cramming my day full of stuff to do and my closet full of clothing is
not going to satisfy. It’s futile. Meaningless.
Unless
my days are for God. Unless my stuff is for God. Than it’s all meaningless, a
chasing after the wind. If the words of my mouth are not of encouragement and
said in love, meaningless. If my work is for my advancement and the money used
for more stuff, meaningless. If my time is spent coveting things on Pinterest
and my eyes feasting on others’ lives on Facebook, meaningless.
My
stuff is not what makes me. If I am only happy when I have stuff, then I feel
good when I have it and horrible when I don’t. This makes life meaningless.
God
does not look at me and see my stuff. He does not say “Well Misty that car you
drive and those designer shoes you have on make you special. “ No, "God cares more about more character than
my comfort" ~ Bryan Hurlbutt
I have come to realize that if my bank account
is full and the fridge is stuffed to the brim this does not mean that I have
God’s approval. If I am lacking, this is not a sign of God’s disfavor.
I
am learning to be owned by nothing. I am learning to detach from this world and
attach more and more each day to my Savior. Here is where I learn the secret to
being content in any and every situation. {Philippians 4:12}
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Over
the next year I will be working on letting go of more stuff.
·
Clothing.
I will be going through the closet again. I have decided to lessen my footprint
on this world. This year I will buy only second hand. That’s right. If I feel
that something is really missing from my closet, I will be headed to Saver’s or
the Goodwill. This helps local charities, supplies locals with jobs and lessens
the landfills. It will make me second guess next time I see that sweet little
shirt online.
·
Storage
Units. The “big scare” made me second guess all of the stuff I have hoarded in
a storage unit. If I can’t name what’s in there… I don’t need it. I will be
going through these units and getting rid of the unnecessary.
·
Feasting
my eyes. This December I took a break from Facebook and found myself on
Pinterest… too much. Time limit. That’s how I will fix that.
·
My
story. I am going to let my fingers flow more this year. I won’t be posting
every time on Facebook. Just here on my little part of the web. Letting God
redeem my ugly.
·
I
am open to whatever God shares with my heart that needs to be given up.
Here is to a new year of letting go and detaching !
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